And so 2017 is here

And so, we bade good-bye to another year, a year which I have once again, lived in a blur. That would be two blurry years already, according to my last new year entry . I guess that happens when one seems to have lost that goal in life. Once that vision is gone, one just floats through time. 2016, I am just glad you are over. It was a huge and impactful year for the family with both little ones started new milestones – one in her first year of formal education while the other a new year in a new school. The daddy had an accident that set the family back for quite a few weeks. I ended my business, as intended at the end of 2015. It was a year of too many incidents, too many disappointments, too many self-doubts, too low a confidence and too few pockets of happiness. To be honest, I am a little cautious with 2017. It just started with my Macbook Air crash on me when I wanted to start this blog entry, kinda says a little bit?

I do have plans for 2017 but I am approaching with a lot of caution. I have too many baggages in the mind. I need to sing like Elsa…Let it go. I no longer dare to just go head-on with things. I have changed. Right now, I can only think pragmatism because I realised to realise dreams, I need to be pragmatic — yes, it took me that long to realise.

I want to accomplish lot in 2017 but it would also mean I have to plan my resources and time properly. So the word , or rather, words I would give myself this year is

Discipline and smile at the littlest things

I need discipline more than ever and discipline has never been what I am good at. I need to learn to juggle things well and I am talking about many things. I want to live each day with no regret. Every minute and every second has to count. I smiled too little in 2016. It takes too much to make me laugh. I need to just smile and laugh as and when I want. I also want to bring a smile to people by doing the smallest things. I want to do my little bit to make the society a little warmer.

I want to make my 2017 different. I need to make that happen….

 

 
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2014…you are fast!

That cuppa iced hazelnut mousse with espresso shot from De Conti is certainly doing its job in ensuring that I DO NOT SLEEP. After doing a little bit of work, then 2 episodes of Criminal Minds S9, I am now blogging. W.O.W.

Funny how the idea of ‘year is coming to an end’ can really get one all jittery and reflective. Jittery because one realised the need to complete some stuffs. For example, clear that stack of receipts in terms of recording in that excel sheet and back-up photos from your phone. Reflective because one realised the importance of looking back and be dismayed at what was not done.

Interesting that this time round, I am feeling, for the first time, NOT reflective. Age, perhaps, is the reason why I kinda feel that 31 December is going to be just another day or maybe it’s because,  very reluctantly, I got to meet client ON THAT DAY.

I was just reading my post last year on the same topic. It got me a little depressed.

La Mariee is stable but I did not see it going farther than I intended to. First half of the year, it was still on track. But that misfortune with the second helper totally derailed everything. I had to cut down my appointments so that I can tend to the kids and the household chores more, though the latter is still sorely neglected. To make matter a little bit wore, I had to deal with a few difficult clients that kinda resulted in some monetary loss so that I can make them H.A.P.P.Y. unfortunately, dealing with them make me doubt whatever I am doing. So, I slowed down even more in my work in the last few months of the year. Only recently, in fact only today, I have found that bit of motivation to plan for the next year. I know one of the top things I got to deal with when it comes to La Mariee is C.O.S.T.

At the  home end, it seems stagnant. I said last year that ‘ …I tried to work hard. BUT I need to work harder’. I guess I did not work hard enough. Somehow, I feel work was neglected, home was also neglected. I really wish I could give the girls more and be more understanding to the Mr.

Personal front. Disastrous. ‘Restraint and Patience’ was my motto for the year. Clearly, I threw both out of the window second half of the year after that maid left. I couldn’t restrain my words, my actions and my anger. I am not patient with people especially my loved ones. I became angry, easily. I couldn’t really pin point what went wrong until just now. I think I cannot handle so many at one time. Also, I think I am getting worried about expectations – my own and others. As a result, I needed to vent and hence, that lack of restraint and patience. So, I complain even more now.

Looking forward, I am in between loss and a little bit of hope. Right now, I am trying hard to pull out every single strain of positivity from my brain and heart and for the first time, it’s actually so much easier to be negative. Mentally, I am quite tired. Not doing anything may look like I am a sloth. But mentally it has been working and working and working. And I realize it has something to do with that constant gazing at the phone.

So, having said all the above, which I hope is making sense, 2014 I want to be a little more back to basics. Time to me has always been precious. It’s high time to divert the time spent on social media to elsewhere. I know I am a social media addict. I derive my news updates from fb, I stay connected with friends over social media especially since my work kinda isolates me quite a bit. Getting offline will kill me but posting only the positive and funny stuffs won’t. I got to spend lesser time online and if I am online, I only want read, see, and post happy things.

2014 is also a year that I need to be more task-oriented. Practicality has to set in. Action is still louder than words.

Lastly, my mission statement for 2014? I THINK I JUST WANT TO BE H.A.P.P.Y. Sounds like an easy mission but in this current state of mind, it’s not that easy. Happiness comes in all forms, as what the wise people say. I shall see…I shall see….

PS: How can I leave weight loss out of this post? I am just 4-5 kg off my target. But then again, this has been the case for the past 5 months. GOT TO WORK HARDER.

The New Year WORD!

Last year, the hub told me that there’s no need to have a long list of new year resolutions (well, I still insisted on having one this year). Instead, I should come up with a word that will guide me through the year. The word I (or rather, he) chose was ‘RESILIENCE’. Useful advice, definitely. Because whenever I felt down, I (or rather, he) kept telling myself this word.

This year, there is already a word in mind but this morning, a phrase kept coming to my mind and so, I decided that this phrase which kinda defines the word shall guide me through 2012!

‘Do only things I like and be GOOD in them’

and the word is FOCUS!

Certainly apt and this is the list of my to-dos that I can apply these on:

– Be a good wifey

– Be a good mummy

– Be a good business person

– Be a good baker

– Be a good daughter

– Be a happier person

 

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Thou shall not blog a long essay about this. Let’s just do it short and sweet in point form.

2011 was good (despite my relentless fb grouses)because

1. I became a mother of 2 right at the beginning. Although they made me pull my hair at moments, they also make me laugh many times. I simply adore my Ks.

2. I started La Mariee Wedding House, with huge support from the hub and my family. It ain’t easy initially but ‘resilient’ and ‘keeping faith’ are the keys.

3. I started baking again. I just love that bakery smell at home. Period.

4. I made acquaintance with a group of really funny friends, ever willing to share and listen and of course, gossip.

5. With self-employment, comes more time with the girls. Proud to say they are very very very very close to me…overly sometimes.

2011 also has its ‘buts’

1. I left a job of 8 years and I miss most from it, the camaraderie among colleagues and ability to make some impact.

2. I hate the battles of virus involving the Ks…enough said.

3. I hate the stock market.

Looking forward 2012, here’s my long list:

1. Good health for all!

2. Lose those freaking ugly flabs! Daily (I hope) Amore while little girl is in school, I’d better try! THIS, is always on my new year’s list! Hate it!

3. LONDON and PARIS! Big Ben, Broadway, Stonehenge, Eiffel, Louvre, Macarons! They better come true.

4. About time for La Mariee to soar! Actual plan? Hmmmm…will mull over it this month 🙂

Alrighty! That’s about it! Wishing all a bountiful 2012 that’s beautiful and happy!